It is so ironic that you and I discussed exactly what we both wanted in the event of our deaths but I had to bury you instead of the other way around.
I honoured your wish for you to be cremated and taken to sea but we had discussed keeping some of your ashes to place on your grandparent's grave at the Woden Cemetery in Canberra (AN/L/E/008) so Bran could have somewhere to visit. It was the right decision Darling as I think it is good for him to go and see you for Christmas and birthdays, anniversaries and other occasions, as well as our usual drop-ins. You have your solar light so that you aren't alone in the dark and when I am driving past late at night and I pull up at the right place on the back fence of the cemetery, I can see your glow and bid you sweet dreams.
When we visit, we usually take something new with us relevant to the occasion like your fibre optic Christmas tree and 'Santa Stop Here' sign, or wind catchers, and angels. Just because you aren't here doesn't mean I have to stop buying silly things for you. Just so hard as there is nowhere to put anything much on a lawn grave.When i get the money, i will make a nicer headstone for you, mum and dad.
We generally go out fortnightly but now he is in my care full-time, we seem to only get out to see you 3-4 weekly.